Why Now?

Looking back to my previous post, I commented that I was sad about the Hi-8 video of Ian degrading.  Analog videos are known to degrade over time.  The video I was watching was about 19 years old.  Ian is now 22.  It needed to be preserved.  There are about 20 cassettes just like it that my father-in-law left us. 

You might ask, "Why are you just taking care of these old videos now, Karina?"

For the same reason I have neglected a lot of things in my life.  There's just too much on my I'll-get-to-that-later  list.  Here are a few more items on that list that I have yet to tackle.

• organize my recipes
• add some healthy, possibly meat-free recipes to my collection
• shred my taxes from 2001 and beyond (I think I only need the last 3 years, right?)
• photograph ALL Lucas' artwork from Kindergarten and First Grade
• go through my closet and organize (I believe this item NEVER leaves my list)
• re-pot the house plants whose roots are ready to explode out of their pots
• painting projects I bought paint for but never started
• de-clutter the various junk drawers in our home

You get the idea.  The 20 or so video cassettes are also part of the list, but I think John and I can convert the good ones and discard the empty or messed up ones within a few weeks.

This project did bring up a tense conversation between John and me. John was annoyed that I planned on paying Costco to convert all these videos into digital format.  He said he can do it himself except he needed to clear space in his hard drive (video requires a lot of Gigabytes) and he needed to clear the space on his desk for the two camcorders he needed to feed the video into his computer....He hasn't found the time to do any of this for the last 5 years.  I don't completely understand the process he described.  I do understand that if I pay Costco $17.99, they will convert 2 hours of video and put it into a DVD for me within 3 weeks. 

This conversation got John started on setting up his computer to do the conversion.  I did not MAKE him do this.  I did not ASK him to do this, but just like that "to do" list I have above, he may have also felt like these tapes had been neglected long enough.  John converted two Hi-8 cassettes into digital format that night.  We also ended up watching little 3-year old Ian open presents at Christmas. But really, that took all evening. My "to-do" list will grow before I can check video tapes off that list.  And here's the other thing, that to-do list involves things... things I haven't kept organized, things I haven't started, things I haven't worn or touched....

This bring to mind the stuff, the stuff, the stuff... that takes my time and energy when I'm not working, sleeping, eating, or taking care of whatever Lucas needs at the moment (Ian doesn't ask Mom for much these days).  I have been seriously considering a major overhaul of the stuff in this apartment. 

I would like to spend my time here on Earth in a better way (since I am over the hill... and heading down!) The more time I spend with my stuff.. and it's good stuff...  the more I think I don't want to spend another minute with extraenous stuff.  Why should part of my Sunday be all about shoving my purses into a cabinet? 

I think this topic deserves its own post.... to be continued.

(the above image is from Kristen Lamb's blog about "The Junk Drawer of Life")

Vintage Ian

I am watching a video of Ian (age 3) taken by my father-in-law, (Lolo) Rafael Sarmiento.  It's a Hi-8 video from 1993.  It is starting to show signs of degrading.  That makes me sad because I told myself to convert these cassette-type videos into digital format years ago.  Maybe I could have saved this video.

But there are a few minutes of it here and there that are ok.  There is one part that struck me.  Ian was playing with his Lolo's camera tripod.  He was trying to look through the arm that extends out from the tripod.  He was pretending it was a telescope!  I fast-forwarded to two minutes later, and you would think that this 3-year-old would have raced to another part of the house distracted by something and started another activity.  Ian was still in the same position investigating the tripod.  This time, he was trying the hinges of the tripod, moving it back and forth, twisting left and right, with such tremendous focus.  All the while his Lolo had the camera on him. 

More minutes into the video showed Ian in front of the Christmas Tree.  He was opening a Christmas present.  It took him 2 1/2 minutes to open the present.  He meticulously peeled the paper and tape off the box... not really trying to be careful of ripping it... but just studying each movement and layer very carefully.  When he got the box open, Ian slowly pulled  out a cookie jar shaped like Santa Claus.  Then Ian grabbed the  lid (Santa's head) and put it on his fist and walked around the house like that.

If you gave Ian a shrink-wrapped item, he would sit down and try to find the seam so that he could begin to open it.  If his chubby little fingers didn't work, then he would use his teeth. If he finally surrendered and needed your help, he would watch you intensely to see how you opened the package.  He was always determined.

That focus and curiosity is what helped Ian succeed at school.  You can tell by the hours of video his Lolo took of him that Ian got that from the Sarmiento side.